Ok I'm seriously pissed today. Oh god pissers everywhere..

Got back my results. It was excellently shitty. Was expected also lah, cos I didn't treat this mid-year seriously also. I'll show you my combined results lah.

English 49.3/100 (HAHA! GOD-DAMMIT I FAILED THIS!)
Chinese 65.4/100
EMath Still dont know cos there's changes.
AMath 36.1/100 (Not bad what...)
Chem 56.7/100
Phy 48.2/100
POA 56.8/100
Combined Humans 55.1/100


Ok shuddup people. I know how I did for mid-year, end-of-year will be better.
So.. Shuddup.

Ma asked about my results. She's smart enough to know that I did badly, because normally I would jump happily to her showing my results. And yea, as expected, I got reprimanded; and she said as if my grades were shitty right from small when I started taking exams. What the fuck. Exam results good, also no compliments from her at all.. No rewards at all.. Exam results not good.. Scold until like that.. Ok seems like none of my hardwork had been recognised by my parents. Eh.. I need encouragements from you people also de ok -.-

Pa is another ass. Shittily shitted shitty shit. Let's not talk about him.

Went cwp to buy some things. I enjoyed shopping alone more & more, but not for all shoppings lah. I'm not a loner, neither am I an anti-social..

As waiting for bus to go home, saw Lionel. He's nice lah. Didn't understand why I really treated him like shit when in Pri 6. It's really tiring & stupid to be a devil, I had really learnt from it. But I still couldn't remove the acids on my tongue :x

Reached home, bath, watch tv, eat dinnar, feed dog, received call from XiangRong & Alan, go down to bball court...

Reached bball court.. Stupid Andika put aeroplane. Haha. Wahh.. The feeling of sitting at the bball court is so nice.. So long didn't feel this extend of relaxation alr lo.. Weee ^^ Haha.

Chatted quite a bit lah.. Love's a shit by nature, ya? Hahaha. Asses with love problems. Haha. Anyway thank you, cute peeps, for asking me down. If I were to continue staying at home, I will really go berserk. So... Thanks guys :)

Homed. Pissed again. OBVIOUSLY I'm not in the mood of joking alr. Is the obvious things not obvious enough? Why aren't the obvious things noticed? -.-


WAHHHH seriously I really cannot stand people forgetting/don't give a damn in continuing/changing the subject we were talking about previously. It just shows that you are simply treating the conv as nothing lo, what else? Maybe really forget.. But where got everytime one? Lol ahhhhhh~

Eh I'm very sick of these alr, people. Guess from now on I shall stop taking initiatives in jio-ing, in doing something for someone/many many someones. Speaking frankly I don't feel appreciated, machiam I'm sucha bugger. No point doing so many when people don't even noticed or appreciated. It's always oh memememememememe. I'm really tired of this alr.. Especially you ah.. Don't worry.. I'll still help people whom really needs it or appreciates it.


Why does it seems like I'm always bugging for meeting up with you? Why does it always seems like you'll not talk if I don't start prompting you to talk? Why am I always the one making the first move? Why is my very own bf doing the same things, when I myself will feel angry whenever other people's bf did it to me? Why can't you give me face, at least? Why are you asking me to stop doing something that you don't like, when you're still doing something that I don't like? Do you even care about how I feel? Why do I see no trust between us at all alr? Why aren't the things that I had pointed out being improved? You don't bother, is it? Why aren't you realising the change in us? Why aren't you doing something? Why aren't you understanding what I'm trying to bring across everytime when something happened? What's left there between us? Can you feel that I'm feeling really exhausted alr? Can you really see how much confusions, how much disappointments, how much unsatisfaction, how much vexness in me? Do you know how much the insecurity there is in me now? Sometimes I feel that we're so from different worlds.. We're from different streams of classes; not saying what, just that you may not understanding what I'm going through. I don't go clubbing, I don't smoke, I don't have those extreme night-lifes, I hang out with people that are more obedient. Do you know how uneasy I feel when your friends are around? I feel so inferior.. I feel as if I'm such an obedient & nooby nerd when I'm with you and your friends. Sometimes I'm really feeling scared because of the gap in us. We've been together for so long alr.. These problems are also not arised just recently, its been there for quite some time alr.. I'm just keeping mum. I'm afraid that you'll scold me.. I'm afraid that you'll say that I'm being unreasonable.. I'm scared that too much of these, you'll feel sick. You're one lucky boy with happiness, sometimes certain things you really couldn't understand, and I don't know how to continue in how I feel.. Because what you'll say is that I'm being too pessimistic or I'm thinking too much.. You're not helping.. I really don't know why are all these questions popping in my mind now.. I don't wish to have an ending either, moreover we've been through so much.. But as Gerald said, '' You can give without loving, but you can never love without giving.. '' Maybe you are giving certain things literally, but certain things, you're not... I'm not being demanding here. These are the basic things that I need.. I'm still a typical girl that needs all these, I'm not as strong person afterall.. Although I may seem all hyped-up and stuffs, or maybe I look strong to you.. I don't know.. Sigh.. Bebe.. I love you.. Maybe more than how much you know.. But these things are so repeatedly affecting it.. Bebe.. It's getting shaky.. I cannot be the one doing all these alone.. I need your help.. Seriously...

Tag Replies.

KeLing: Kampong WuGui Po! Lol wth I still can remember your cute name. Hahaha, thanks ^^ Whoaa.. Really excited for Tuesday lahhhh.. Miss you lo -.-

Gerald!: Sigh.. Yup you're right.. But sometimes I really feel fedup with those. Hmm, yea. I will cherish. Thanks dude, love you laaa! :)


Ok I really have to stop. Such a long post today.. Bye.

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