Monday, June 16, 2008 @ 11:32 PM
I can't really stand you & this thing anymore.
I'm holding on to it, because of the sake of it.All this while, it's being maintained by our affections...And also.. Sweeping the issues under the mat..Nothing is ever solved, even after communicating.I'm always unreasonable; because you didn't get what I'm saying yourself.Certain things are DEFINITE and OBVIOUS with your current status, actually no one should be telling you the right things to do. And yet you can tell me it's the nature of all males, guiltylessly. Sorry for bringing this up again, but this is really senseless.You're never the one who cheered me up; you don't know. No encouraging words from you at least, no actions to make me feel better, nothing. You're always 'entertaining' me by saying: Aiyaa you're thinking too much. Or anything like that. What a fucking slap on my face. Even if you don't know, there're some human instincts in each and every one us, telling us what to do to make someone feel better. This time, it is not that you don't know, it is you don't care at all already, seriously.. Doesn't it hurts me too? It hurts so much please. And what? You just simply entertained me over for this. Holy fuck.I'm someone aggresive and short-fused, I need someone of the opposits, to be able to calm down while I'm still berserked and trying to chill. You couldn't calm down at all, even if I'm all calmed alr. Because you couldn't calm down, you will get a brain-freeze, you can't think about things clearly anymore. The conclusion of our every conflicts, is that either I'm unreasonable, or me apologising for the sake of it, or you apologising for the sake of it too. Baby, there's no point of doing this.You never tried to communicate (communicate doesn't means telling me off only, you can tell me nicely too) with me, how do you expect me to know how you feel? Me ain't any mind-reader nor psychologist nor psychiatrist, nor God -.- You really can't blame me for the things I don't know, you know?Now there's a presence of another. That makes me realised how unromantic, how unsweet you're treating me. I don't feel anything much from you anymore, and that's why it's fading.. We human beings would always tend to favour towards the direction whereby we feel happier, it's human nature. This human nature and your crappy male nature is different here. I've said before, the game of love is just like the 2 ways to solve a Simultaneous Equation, it's either Elimination, or Substitution. What else, right? Oh ya, there's something else.. WHICH IS TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. But did you? Sorry I don't think so, even if you did, I can't feel it, really.Alright. I really don't wanna get involved in this kinda shit alr. After this, I shall stop getting myself into it. I'm sick of these already. Moreover, we're all still too young. Especially in this generation, almost everyone of us has a lack of stamina in doing things.Who could I ask? Who could I listen to?Or should I really stop, and allow my heart to make the decision?And.. Who?Sigh.. Finally finished venting.
Tag replies ok?
Ky: Oh sucker Ky! Hahahaha! Aiyaa cannot blame, we're the Duboses-in-Uniforms :O!Bye.
